That is the question I’ve been asking myself lately, and no luck in trying to find an answer to that. Yeah my family is here and all, but, what is there here for me? I’ve talked about this before in my blog. I really can’t find something that really would tie me to this city. Maybe a lover? Yeah right! The gay scene in St. Louis is bad enough, and to try to find a decent guy to date.. in my dreams!
One of the few bad things about me is that I’m impatient. If I want something, I want it now! Otherwise I get upset, and I start to stress. Bad I know. I can’t help it though. I hate waiting for something, for whatever it is. So as you would understand, waiting for three months to move to New York fucking City is going to be a torture. On the bright side, we all know that time flies, and by no time, I will be leaving St. Louis.
Maybe you are asking yourself, is this fucker really going to move to NYC? Well, I am thinking yes, but, you know, anything can happen from now till October (planned move date). But really, anything can happen. Life can change in a blink of an eye. Who knows what is my destiny.
From now till I finally move to NYC, I plan on just working, saving, finishing up a class that I currently have going at STLCC, which I must say, I am sick of that school. Not even school is keeping me here. Either that school depresses me, or school is just not my thing.
The tone of this blog might have sounded a bit negative, but it’s just how I feel at the moment. You can say that today wasn’t my best day. Besides other issues, one that really bothered me today is the pain of my molar tooth, which pretty soon I will go in to have that taken out… wish me luck ya’ll!
Boy…I feel you.
It’s not so much a negative tone. It’s really you just searching for a reason to stay.
I’m in the same boat.
I have nothing holding me back. Every day I find myself complaining because there are no opportunities for me to live out my dreams in the Midwest, period.
I gave up everything I wanted to do to work at Verizon Wireless, not knowing I was doing it. It’s time to make a change.
I think it’s the right thing to do. Don’t you realize, you keep turning back to NYC. If it’s family you’re worried about, that’s what planes are for…..
I find it funny that you want to leave St. Louis because it doesn’t seem big enough for you and I came here because it was so much bigger than where I was from. I have been to NYC though too and have to admit that if I could afford to live there on a teacher’s salary I would in a heartbeat. I am talking about living right in the heart of things too, not out in a suburb somewhere.