I Had Surgery Today

Well, it was just an extraction of two wisdom teeth, but it sure felt like I was going to have real surgery. At first, they gave me something that was supposed to “relax” me, but I felt like I was drunk, and after a month without drinking, that felt sooo good. After that, they gave me the good stuff that put me to sleep.

When I woke up, they were finished. I didn’t feel shit. Thank god for drugs! My left side was all numb, a bit swollen, but I was glad it was over. Going to the dentist is scary ya’ll, so take good care of your teeth!

Rocky And Brandon, Best Buds

Senti La Necesidad

De que tu te as de preguntar. Pues senti que ya era tiempo que escribiera un blog en español, despues de todo, esa es mi lengua natal.

Para los que no saben, yo si soy una persona orgullosa de sus raices. Soy de Mexico, y que? Algun problema? Soy orgulloso de ser Mexicano, y no me averguenzo de serlo. Uno hay que tener orgullo de su pais, no importa que tan rico, o que tan pobre lo sea.

Mexico digamos, dicen que es un pais del segundo mundo. Lastima que con tanto politico corrupto, y la ignorancia de la mayoria de nuestra gente, no hemos podido avanzar la gran cosa. Pero hay que ser realistas, demasiada gente en Mexico es tan ignorante, que la verdad da lastima. Uno tiene aspiraciones que haya buena educasion para todos en Mexico, y no tanta naquez, pero parece ser un sueño mas que nada.

Los Americanos tienen una imagen fija de como son los Mexicanos, y esa es: chaparros, prietos, y feos! Los que no saben, piensan que Mexico esta lleno de gente asi. Eso da coraje, la verdad. Lo unico que da es lastima, lastima que no haya trabajos suficientes en Mexico, lastima que no haya la educasion suficiente, lastima que la gente de a parecer que la lucha ante todo lo malo este vencida.

Mexico, tu eres mi pais.

Mexico, yo te quiero.

Mexico, no importa donde yo este en el mundo, te tendre en mi corazon siempre.

Y Mexico… no te rajes!

What The Hell Am I Doing In St. Louis?

That is the question I’ve been asking myself lately, and no luck in trying to find an answer to that. Yeah my family is here and all, but, what is there here for me? I’ve talked about this before in my blog. I really can’t find something that really would tie me to this city. Maybe a lover? Yeah right! The gay scene in St. Louis is bad enough, and to try to find a decent guy to date.. in my dreams!

One of the few bad things about me is that I’m impatient. If I want something, I want it now! Otherwise I get upset, and I start to stress. Bad I know. I can’t help it though. I hate waiting for something, for whatever it is. So as you would understand, waiting for three months to move to New York fucking City is going to be a torture. On the bright side, we all know that time flies, and by no time, I will be leaving St. Louis.

Maybe you are asking yourself, is this fucker really going to move to NYC? Well, I am thinking yes, but, you know, anything can happen from now till October (planned move date). But really, anything can happen. Life can change in a blink of an eye. Who knows what is my destiny.

From now till I finally move to NYC, I plan on just working, saving, finishing up a class that I currently have going at STLCC, which I must say, I am sick of that school. Not even school is keeping me here. Either that school depresses me, or school is just not my thing.

The tone of this blog might have sounded a bit negative, but it’s just how I feel at the moment. You can say that today wasn’t my best day. Besides other issues, one that really bothered me today is the pain of my molar tooth, which pretty soon I will go in to have that taken out… wish me luck ya’ll!

Which ‘Sex And The City’ Character Are You?

By revealing my answer, you will get a clearer sense of who I am. And that’s the point! I don’t mind being open about who I really am. I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks. No one should.

Actually I think I am two characters combined. I think I would say I am 70% Samantha, and 30% Carrie. I say I am more like Samantha because kids are not for me. They are cute and whatever you want, but defently not for me. I also love sex, but who doesn’t right? I don’t mind to talk about it all the time either. I live to have fun, with no baggage (kids). Like Samantha, I will probably still be rocking sexy and having fun at age 50. Only that I really wouldn’t like to get so old with wrinkles and a disgusting body. I would like to be gone by when that time comes thank you!

I am 30% Carrie because I’m just fashionable! Or try to be. I like to party, but also like to cuddle up with a special someone in bed once in a while. I love cloths and shoes are not bad either. I am a New Yorker by heart, and also, our laptop is our everything! Ha ha.

So, as you see, these two fabulous women are a perfect example to explain ME more. Now the questions is, which sex and the city character are YOU?

(Samantha with her horny new dog in the movie ‘Sex And The City’)

(Soon-to-be New Yorkers, Alex and his Chihuahua Rocky)

 

Just For Giggles

I know some people think of me as a nerdo for having a blog, but at least I don’t blog about my sex life, or lack thereof. Well, not yet anyway.. Haha!

Check out this funny cartoon kids. Notice the laptop right on hand!

Life Is About Taking Risks

During these past few weeks, I have been discovering more about life. I’ve been trying to figure out why life sometimes is not the way we wanted it to be. Recently I have learned that life is a trade off, nothing is balanced. If you want something, you have to sacrifice something else. So, life’s a bitch basically.

To get high in life, you have to aim high. That means you must take risks, and sometimes, bigger risks. Without taking risks, you are not going to achieve anything, that’s just plain and simple.

Whatever your situation is, be willing for change if you want to do better. Don’t be afraid of big changes. Remember that our decisions is what shape our lives. I have said it before but I’m saying it again.. follow your gut! Don’t let no punk tell you what to do.

When someone makes big decisions that would affect their lives long-term, I completely understand if the person would be scared shitless. I’ve been there before. Back in 2007 I had to make a big ass decision: Whether or not I should move to New York City. Back then, I didn’t know the things that I know now about NY. Back then I didn’t know anyone in NY. Back then I didn’t know shit. I have to admit, the decision I took to move to NY in ‘07 took some balls, some big balls.

Now is like Deja Vu, I find myself here in St. Louis thinking that I am never going to get anything out of this city, and considering moving to NYC… again. Only this time, I have the power of knowledge & the power of friendship. It is still going to be a bit difficult in the sense of leaving the family. That is always hard to deal with.

At any rate, I have a big decision to make. A decision that would defently affect my life. The question is, will it be a positive or negative change for me?

Gay Men & Straight Women Have Similar Brains

New study points to possible biological source of sexual orientation.

LONDON – Gay men and straight women share some characteristics in the area of the brain responsible for emotion, mood and anxiety, researchers said on Monday in a study highlighting the potential biological underpinning of sexuality.

chicks and fags have similar brains? What a shock! Like we didn’t know already.. haha.

To read more about this story, go here!

Be Free To Be YOU

Be free to be gay.

Be free to show your love.

Fuck who ever has a problem with that.

Last time when I was in New York, I had a few opportunities to see two guys holding hands, and that was just great. I am glad that at least in some part of the world, guys are not afraid to show some public display of affection. Too bad that here in the Midwest you don’t see that at all.

Well, maybe once a year, in a complete gay environment… in St. Louis pride! Gay pride that is. It will be held June 28th, and I am thinking of taking Rocky with me. I am sure he’ll score me some hot guys! We’ll see.

OCD.. Do You Have It?

I always knew I had a certain amount of OCD in me, but since it doesn’t affect, or interfere with my everyday life, it is not diagnosable. In school last semester, I wrote a paper about obsessive-compulsive disorder, and when doing the research for the paper, I got to learn a lot about it. I read a really good book about it, by Ian Osborn. It talks about all kinds of obsessions, compulsions, treatment, ect.

Before reading this book, I thought I knew somewhat about this disorder, but I had no idea. Many people as well don’t know much about this disorder. Those individuals who have it and does interfere with their life, it can be a real nightmare. One of the things I learned is that a clinical obsession has a different meaning to the one we use regularly. A good definition to a clinical obsession is:

“Obsessions are thoughts which come to the foreground of consciousness in spite of and contrary to the will of the patient, and which he is unable to suppress although he recognizes them as abnormal and not characteristic of himself”

As you may know, hand-washing compulsions are OCD’s most recognized symptom, others behavioral compulsions include checking, requesting reassurance, hoarding, repeating, rubbing, touching, tapping, and ordering. There are also mental compulsions, but to understand these compulsions thoroughly, read the book! I recommend it.

In the book comes The Padua Inventory, and that is a “test” of a series of 60 questions that represent the most common obsessions and compulsions. After you have scored your own test, it will give you kind of like a diagnostic. For example, the average result for people in treatment for OCD is about 80. People that don’t suffer from OCD might get a score of 40. You get it? the higher the score, the more probability that you have OCD. Well I took the test and I got a score of 55. What’s your score?

My OCD might not be diagnosable, and my score might not be as high as 80, but even if it was, as my psychology teacher said wisely regarding mental disorders, your mind has the power to overcome anything. We really have the power. No need to fuck ourselves over with medications and whatnot.

Guadalajara, Hueles A Pura Tierra Mojada

People have the misconception that all of Mexico is dirty & filthy. Well, that is not the case. There are a lot of beautiful places, but most people don’t know about these because all they see on TV is the ugly side of Mexico, because god forbids they show something other than border towns.

Here’s a video that I took back in 2004 while I was in Guadalajara, my hometown. GDL is the second biggest city in Mexico. It is historic, modern, and some call it the heart of Mexico.

Something to notice, is that around the .54 mark you will see a soldier noticing that I was video taping and gives me a  thumbs up. Kind of cool. That was a rare sight because that was like the first time I saw the “army” in the city streets. Also, the statue you will see in the video, it’s called “La Minerva”. It is the most recognizable landmark in GDL.

Enjoy the video, as you will take a small look into the city which I lived in for about 10 years.

Immigration Reform Now!

While shopping at American Apparel in New York, this t-shirt caught my attention. Until then, I didn’t know that they supported an immigration reform. Good for them!

Actually, it’s pretty interesting what they got to say. To read all about it, go to American Apparel’s website and get all the info. They have immigration myths & facts, ads, and an immigration fact sheet. According to them, 10 facts about immigrants are-

10 Facts About Immigrants

Get the straight facts on some common misconceptions about immigrants.

1	Immigrants pay taxes
2	Immigrants come to work and reunite with family members
3	Immigrants and their businesses contribute $162 billion in tax revenue
4	Immigrant entrepreneurs create jobs for U.S. and foreign workers
5	Immigrants fill jobs in key sectors, start their own businesses, and contribute to the economy
6	Within ten years of arrival, more than 75% of immigrants speak English
7	Today’s immigrants are not that different than those of 100 years ago
8	Most immigrants come to the US legally
9	Despite more strongly enforced US border security, the number of undocumented immigrants has not decreased
10	The war on terrorism cannot be won through immigration restrictions

So, hopefully with Obama as president, there will be an immigration reform. That is the right thing to do, and whoever says the contrary, is just plain racist and ignorant.